Thursday, March 5, 2015

I'm alive...barely

Hi Everyone! Wow! It's been so long. I don't even know how to write a blog post anymore. Just kidding...

Well I seriously can't believe it's been over a month since I've blogged. Honestly, it flew by so fast. I've been MIA due to so many things. I haven't even been checking let along posting on my instagram account. I usually post a pic every couple day AT least. Nope, Nothing. Well...the past month has been a crazy one. 

We packed up our apartment and put everything in storage. I seriously mean everything. My kids and I are living off bare essentials at my parents for a few months. It feels like we're on vacation or something. My husband left for U.S. Army Boot Camp last month and it's been really tough. I just can't seem to get myself out of this funk. It's not just's everything. I don't want to eat, sleep, do chores, go grocery shopping, work out, make my bed, pay my bills, go on Instagram, watch my kids...the list goes on and on. I didn't think I'd be like this. It never crossed my mind. 

I signed up for a bunch of swaps to keep me busy and mind off things and now I just don't feel like sewing. It sucks. I want to but really don't have a desire at the moment. I hope to start sewing this weekend though. I have a  couple projects I need to get done. In case you're wanting to order a wallet, I need to put all potential orders on hold for now. I'll let you all know when I'm ready to jump back into the sewing sack. I just need some space and time to get my crap together. Having my husband gone with pretty much no communication has been harder than I ever anticipated. It feels like he fell off the face of the Earth. Seriously. He is just gone. I'm just now finally starting to get letters from him. That was a huge jump-start for me. Just seeing his handwriting and "hearing" his thoughts.

Today was a good day though. We actually got out of the house and went shopping a little bit. It was nice to go outside. I've been so sluggish lately. Anyways...I just wanted you all to know that I'm not dead! Just MIA and in a little bit of a funk. I'll snap out of it soon I hope. I'm trying to get things back into a routine and normal again. Hopefully I have something to show you next week :)

Wish me luck!
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  1. I can empathize with the hole in your family and short life rations living with someone else. Just know the public appreciates his service and stands behind our soldiers 100%. When my husband was in 'Nam people spit on him when he came home..
    You might think about some saffron or St John'sWart to help keep your spirits up, Sharyn

  2. Oh, I hope you are able to work through this period and get back to feeling like sewing and everything else. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Good luck on the temporary quarters, enjoy your parents, and remember this too will pass.

  3. Oh Stephanie, that's a Lot at once!!! Good for you for letting us know. Maybe we can help lift you up. I sure can relate. My hubby got his first job in the US as a trucker, when I was pregnant with our second child. Later he went off to Iraq. We learned to compress our conversations into short phone calls and letters. The loneliness is hard but you'll learn you are very resilient. Write me anytime if you want to vent. Lizzie in Sweden

  4. You're dealing with so much, it's no wonder you have no energy! It's like when you're healing from being sick you need to sleep more? The same thing happens emotionally. I do want to point out that the things you're dealing with are signs of depression (but, I am not a doctor), especially the not wanting to do anything. It's totally normal given what you're going through, but don't feel like you have to deal with it all by yourself! I hope you are able to feel better soon!

  5. Hang in there, Stephanie! Sending good thoughts your way!!

  6. Hoping for better times for you all soon. May only good things come your way.

  7. I have been thinking about! I'm glad that you're OK. Take your time and know that we all understand.

  8. Rosemary B here:
    I know how you feel. Big changes make me depressed, especially if there are a lot of personal changes I have to cope with. Living at home.
    That is hard.
    Well, I suggest you make a list of all the stuff you need to do, and then just do one thing, or maybe two little things. Seriously.
    As the others have stated above, you could be depressed. Try to not push yourself too hard, focus on small things.
    Keep a diary. If you need to, think about talking with a therapist. Drugs.... I would try to stay away from them unless things get really hard and you are sobbing a lot.
    Love always


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